Today has been quite a day. Actually quite a few couple of days. All of my furniture is out of my Gainesville/UF apartment. It's an empty for lease space now. Clean and ready to move in. (So somebody, please, rent my apartment!) I have to be honest, spending time in Gainesville puts me in such a bad mood. I always leave feeling so bitter about the whole graduate school situation. I know I would have totally rocked that program, and its embarrassing and belittling to my ego to realize I let money get me down. I didn't have the faith in myself, in God, in the universe itself to trust that I would get a job. Was it really about the money, though? More time needs to buffer how I feel towards the situation and reality before I can dissect everything. I feel a mixture of guilt, failure, and injured pride.
"Uncertainty is your doorway to freedom. Stop struggling and surrender to the unknown. You are part of the Uni-verse, one song." - Deepak Chopra
I think that's something we can all meditate on, no?
Tomorrow back to cooking.
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